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I created this blog in December of 2005. For just over two years, it has remained empty. I’m hoping to fill it up with something. What that something is, remains to be seen.

During the course of a day, I think of dozens of things to blog about. But when I actually have the chance to sit down and get it out, I suddenly feel uninspired. 

Uninspired is the best way to describe me lately. I’m just creeping up on middle age and the focus of my life has abruptly changed from looking to the future to examining my past. I know this is completely normal. I’m sure there are thousands of men just like me who have hit a point in their life where they feel like they have accomplished nothing. I’m certain I am not the only one who has regrets, who feels they could have done better. Been more ambitious. Attained more of their goals. I’m not a failure. I’ve accomplished a lot. The only problem is that my accomplishments have been achieved for the sake of other people. They weren’t really my goals, they were just the right things to do. 

So now, as I reach the middle of an average lifespan, I look back at the things I’ve done and wonder if I can do better. I just don’t know where to start.